READ: A Blog Update From Britney Haynes!

by Matt Richmond on September 30, 2013

As you all probably now, a few weeks ago it was revealed that former Big Brother houseguest Britney Haynes’ (BB12/BB14) young daughter Tilly, was diagnosed with cancer. Tilly was just 7 weeks old when Britney and her husband Ryan heard the devastating news.

Britney confirmed the news via Twitter after it leaked from a post she made from her personal Facebook page. She has started a blog where she is detailing her journey as Tilly is treated for cancer. You can read Britney’s first blog post below:

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September 27, 2013 By Britney Godwin

I have finally found the courage to write my first blog post. I think that these will get easier, but I’ve struggled for several days trying to decide what to say. I am still figuring out how to approach this situation and deciding how much detail I feel comfortable sharing. I was surprised when the news about Tilly got out. I made a post on my personal Facebook page (not fan page) and someone posted it on a Big Brother website. I wasn’t upset because I knew I would share the news eventually; it just caught me off guard. So forgive me for taking so long to find the words to say here……it is a bit of a struggle.

My little girl was 7 weeks and 1 day old when we rushed her to the emergency room. We had been making regular visits to the pediatrician for weeks trying to figure out why she seemed so unwell. I researched like a crazy person for answers, but everything that I found pointed to “normal baby behavior” and I was constantly reassured that she would grow out of this “fussy phase.” I held onto those words while we waited for answers. We found out at 4am on Labor Day that she had cancer. It was shocking to say the least. Cancer hadn’t been a consideration, not even a worse-case scenario. I don’t like to think/talk about a single minute of those 24 hours. I know that I had never truly been heartbroken in my life until that moment. I had never really felt helpless. I had never really known what it was like to cry. That was the first time that I learned what those things really felt like.

Tilly started chemotherapy within 26 hours of being diagnosed. She had biopsy surgery the following day and recovered from both like a champion! After 2 1/2 weeks we got to spend a few days at home before we went back for her 2nd round of chemo. She is still on the mend from that now but is doing well. I am so proud of her. She inspires me with her strength and keeps me going. Many times I would have probably crumbled if she wasn’t smiling.

Today we are in a place of hope and optimism. All news has been good news since the diagnosis. I find a thousand blessings in the situation each day. I am grateful for her age and inability to remember the pain. I am grateful for her team of doctors and their knowledge in treating her. I am grateful for a small platform to bring awareness to this disease and the thousands of other children (and parents) who suffer.

Mostly, I feel blessed for the outpouring of support from so many people. I am grateful to have so many amazing friends who have made a most terrible situation a little better. They continue to surprise me by doing little (and sometimes big) things for Tilly, Ryan, and I. In fact, this site wasn’t my idea at all, but a gift from a couple of the best. I am touched by the support of all of you who are reading this. I mean it when I say that I am appreciative of each prayer that goes up in her name. I am grateful for your kind messages on twitter. I can’t tell you how dramatically my spirits have been lifted by so many notes of encouragement and hope that I have received.

I never had any plans to be this person…..a mom who blogs about her daughter’s journey fighting cancer. But here I am. Sometimes I will be a little shaky because I really don’t know what I am doing, but I will do the best job that I can. Thank you for taking the time to listen and care. I will update again soon.

xoxo

Britney

Big Brother fans immediately jumped in to help and began rasing money for Britney. If you would like to keep up with Britney’s blog posts and donate money for Tilly you can go to her OFFICIAL blog HERE. You can also tweet your support by using the hashtag #TogetherForTilly on Twitter.

Britney, if you happen to see this, please know that we are keeping you, Ryan, and Tilly in our thoughts and prayers and we wish you all the best. We’re here for you!

{ 10 comments… read them below or add one }

Elva September 30, 2013 at 2:57 am

Praying for your baby may the Lord wrap his hands around you, husband and Tilly

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Trish September 30, 2013 at 6:28 am

Sending you prayers of strength and Angels to surround you and your family with peace, light, and healing!

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Parilee September 30, 2013 at 7:46 am

We are praying for all of you and your family. God is a loving God. He loves His children. He will see you through this tough time.

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Gina September 30, 2013 at 9:32 am

Brittany I can’t even begin to imagine what you and Ryan must be going through. my heart is so heavy after reading your blog. May God be with you, Ryan and Tilly while y’all go through this painful time. May God wrap his loving arms around the 3 of you and keep you safe.

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mary September 30, 2013 at 11:44 am

I am sending Prayers for Tilly and you& husband. I asked the angels and Arch Angel Raphael to Guide the Doctors and nurses in Tilly recovery. blessings to you all May you feel the comfort in the Angels they are working to heal Tilly.

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Jeanne Walsh September 30, 2013 at 11:51 am

I’ve been through this with family members, but never one so young that was blessed to be entrusted to me. The Lord knew that by choosing the two of you this baby would thrive due to your love. He is with you on this journey~Keep the faith and God Speed~

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Crystal Mulvey September 30, 2013 at 1:05 pm

Brittney, I am so sorry for what you are going through! I would like to say I couldn’t imagine but your story sounds much like mine. I also have a son who was eight months at the time Who on Labor Day of 2001 had his first Cardiac arrest and was place on the Heart transplant list he has since then had two transplants. You are a very strong person and god gave you this little give for a reason it is because he knows you can handle it. Myself and mty family will send many prayers until we hear little Tilly is in perfect health again <3

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Becky September 30, 2013 at 3:09 pm

My prayers for the family and friends of Tilly are with you. You will all be in my prayers every night until she beats this.

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Sara September 30, 2013 at 8:32 pm

Hi Britney,
Thank you for sharing your life with us. I can only imagine what you are going through. I’ll keep thinking good thoughts for Tilly.

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Wendy Jill Neikirk March 12, 2014 at 3:53 am

Britney, Ryan, & Tilly you are loved by many! Prayers for a 100% cure for Tilly! Thank you for sharing Tilly’s journey of Chemotherapy which is so personal! You are such an inspiration to everyone! Thank you!

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